Today was such a scary day for me. I’ve literally never ever felt so scared, upset, worried, drained and frustrated in my life. My precious two year old had 4 of his front teeth removed due to cavities caused from breastfeeding. NO I’m not saying breastfeeding isn’t good for a baby. NO I’m not making an excuse for the situation. As any mother would I wouldn’t think I was causing any harm to my child by breast feeding but turns out too much of anything is never a good thing. I myself was breastfed until I was 4 and this didn’t occur, his father has beautiful teeth and I’m 23 with one cavity, so is it or it isn’t hereditary ? Who knows. I’m simply writing this because what I went through today I wouldn’t wish on anybody. (If you are a breastfeeding mother and you feed your child during the night take the time to get a wet cloth and wipe the teeth of your baby.) Now Granted it’s his baby teeth, the adult ones will grow in due time. But by God’s grace I have a healthy beautiful boy and seeing him today in that hospital under general anesthesia with the IV and the hospital gown, etc literally Killed Me. I was upset I wasn’t strong enough to not break down, I was upset I couldn’t change the circumstances, I was upset and I felt like all of it was completely my fault. I will forever worry about what happens to him from today on. I teach first grade and children are beautiful but can be so cruel (I witness this first hand), so to think my baby is different for losing his teeth this early is a battle that I’m ready to fight with him. He’s so beautiful in and out, full of life and so smart. Some of you think this girl is crazy people are out there with actual sicknesses but this is to me is such a big deal because I know the psychological effects it can cause him thanks to our ingenious society. The anesthesia sucked and everything about this process sucks. I did what was best for him despite the situation and now I just want him to have a full recovery so we can get back to laughing and playing. He has a wonderful weekend coming up to put aside all this pain. I couldn’t thank his father enough for being there today for DJ and for me. He wiped every tear and continued to reassure me everything was going to be alright. I love you DJ with every piece of me.
(Written March 21,2016)